A life
My morality was perfectly consistent with the meaninglessness within me, so the problem was inside me.
Then, one day, I understood through divine illumination that all the evils of the world can be solved only through prayer and consecration to God.
Since the age of eleven, dear brothers, I have suffered inner torment. Fear has clouded my mind, and I have always been accompanied by twisted thoughts that robbed me of peace and of God.
I was seduced by life and its illusions. I lived as a sinner with an inclination toward sexual pleasures, yet when I committed evil, I always thought of Christ, because behind every sinner lies Satan.
It is true, I have been and still am a man of weak will. I graduated without studying and I want to do nothing. I am nervous and always in crisis; I start reading but soon grow tired, lose concentration, and fail to move forward. I know how to do nothing. I cannot enter into any expression of life. A force fights me and bars my way and my victory.
In my youth, to relieve my suffering, I turned to a psychologist. Nothing helped me, nothing assisted me, not even "spiritually learned" people.
In no priest, I am sorry to say, did I find help and peace; on the contrary, I only obtained disappointment.
Over time I understood that no medicine can heal me. My problem is worse than cancer.
I have had hell inside me. I lived in idleness, went through spiritual crises, but no one gave me support. My life, however, is not yet finished and I do not want to die defeated and a sinner. I would like to die after having consecrated my life to God.
Over time I understood that all my anguish, my crises, and my strange ways concealed a single meaning: "To seek God", for what the Gospel says is true: "Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things will be given to you as well".
One day, I understood through divine illumination that all the evils of the world can be solved only through prayer and consecration to God. Immediately I recited the Holy Rosary, then I turned on the computer and searched the internet for websites dealing with the subject of prayer.
I always visited these websites, but your page never appeared to me. This time Christ wanted to help me by letting me know your noble apostolate. God wanted to grant my request by letting me find someone to help me pray.
Brothers, help me find continuous prayer, to get out of this deficiency I carry within me and that makes me live in idleness and despair. I am ready to pray together with you; alone I cannot manage, I do not know how to pray, and for this reason I ask for your help. I beg you, intercede with God so that I may obtain victory over Satan and may emerge from idleness, despair, and sex, and through prayer may become a penitent and a servant of the Lord.
Brothers help me! Satan possesses me because I live in God's shadow, even though I apparently have no physical illness.
After joining your group, I immediately gained serenity, joy, and hope. For years I had been looking for someone who could help me, but I never found anyone.
I always went online to browse fabulous websites full of spirituality, but not yours. Even though you were on the internet, you were unknown and invisible to me.
When Christ knocked at the door of my heart, I went online and your website appeared to me immediately. He made me understand that: "your prayer group was founded by Christ, that your prayer group was willed by Christ".
Stronger than my soul dominated by Satan, than my pain and my spiritual crises, is my desire to heal. The cry for help has reached the Throne of the Most High and He has directed me to you, so that I may rise again to help the brothers who have been left behind and suffer without finding a way out.
Yes, Jesus opened a door to me perhaps because I am ready to work for Him. I have been a traitor to Christ and therefore damned, but now a new dawn has risen, bringing so much peace, serenity, and love.
. Massimo